Happy Anniversary

I recently received some feedback that my blogs are negative or I think the word that was used was “dark”. I also was told that the “photography” posts “lose me and I tune out”. Today I will not cover either theme.

October 16^th is my wedding anniversary. I spent today doing things I enjoyed. I began the morning, waking up early (4am but left the house at 7am), to meet Mark at a park I had never been to. Chapel Lake Park was my new destination.

I pulled into the park at 7:31am and saw Mark’s Jeep already parked. I pulled into the parking spot next to him, unloaded, said good morning, and off we went.

As we started on the paved path that skirted around the lake, the 51 degree temperature and strong breeze provided a chill in the air. The sun was rising behind us, and I turned to grab the picture above. The tree presented here is on a hill overlooking the lake and has been claimed by Mark, but I was given permission this day to shoot it. He is so kind.

We walked, talked, shot some pictures and I even grabbed a few geocache along the way. We spent a few hours walking around the lake, along the trails, and enjoyed the wildlife we could both see and hear.

I returned home around 10am, grabbed a quick shower, then Marcie and I headed out for our first of two meals this day. Lunch was at Parlor Pizza in New Albany, Indiana, and dinner later was at Outback Steakhouse.

At Parlor we were the only ones there, which was nice, and though Outback was a bit more crowded, call ahead seating was used and our wait was 6 minutes.

Marcie and I both have changed so much since we first met. We have seen both good times and bad heartache and joy, but I can honestly say I am in love with her more today than when we first met. She is my world and I am so glad she has stuck by me all these years.

The weather was perfect; the company was even better. It was a great day. One I will not forget.

Until next time,

Tim (Kilmer)

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