Adventure Hiking Trail

Adventure Hiking Trail - the return.

Today’s journey was a return to the Adventure Hiking Trail that I first explored a few weeks ago. Today’s hike was much different, however. Before Mark and I tackled the trail alone and right after heavy rains, today I was with a bigger group and the trail was much drier.

Normally I utilize my time on the trail for meditation, introspection, and self-reflecting. I was with a different crowd today. The hike was very peaceful and I always enjoy being in nature, but I had a different type of relaxation than I normally have. Today I spent time sharing small talk with others and listening to conversations echoing throughout the woods.

The section of the AHT we traveled today provided its visual wonders, including some streams, remnants of an old house, the shelter at the top of the hill, and of course the overlook. Signs of spring were everywhere, and I knew it was not far away. Many comments on how great this would look in the summer, were heard often. I thought how both autumn and what’s left of winter, to me those times provided the best views.

I felt distracted today. As always nature cleared out my head, but not to the extent it normally does. I plan to do more solitary hikes in the future. I love the sounds of nature and the pure peace I feel when I am not surrounded by noise, both from the world and from idle conversations.

I was glad I was able to take along others to experience what I had a few weeks back. It was evident that everyone had a good time, and we all let a small piece of us on the trail.

Until next time,

Tim

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