Ruminator

Photo by: Tim Bindner 10.16.11 – 3.11.22 After the advice of my Psychologists on March 4th visit, I tried something I have never really done in order to advance my mental health. Journaling. March 5th I began my daily journal. As a person who asks tons of questions and wants to understand the rules of whatever I am doing or need to do, I asked Dr. Erin about journaling. I asked, what do I write? How much do I write? How often do I write? Her response “ there are no rules. Just write what you want, when you want .” I continued with what style do I write in? What kind of notebook do I need? She responded, “ Tim, there are no rules. It is your journal. Write what you want. ” With the uneasiness of a blank sheet of paper staring back at me, I wrote. I worried not about grammar, or spelling, but tried to let the random thoughts flow onto the paper. I have made a point of writing at least something daily. One problem I have is my mind is so much faster than my handwriting or typing. Jou...

Photo by: Tim Bindner 10.16.11 – 3.11.22 It is with a heavy and shattered heart that I write this post this morning. One of my best friends is leaving this world today. Another victim of cancer. In 2012, Marcie and I made a 2+ hour drive to Cox Creek Kentucky to pick up a friend and actual step brother (separated by 4 years) for our dog, Copper. We had a few choices of Australian Shepherds puppies, but Marcie saw the chubby brown ball of fur that soon was on her lap in the car and whining the ENTIRE trip home. We had now added Kota to the family. Copper didn’t know what this little thing was at first, but soon tolerated him and then learned to love him. Gavin was 8 years old and now had a little furry play toy. Both Copper and Kota followed Gavin everywhere he went. We could look outside our home window and could see Copper facing whichever direction, and we knew that was where Gavin was. Aussies are herders and they herded Gavin. Over many years, our love for both dogs drew deepe...

Photo by: Tim Bindner I met with my Psychologist last Friday and we discussed many things bouncing around in my head. She dropped a clinical term on me I had never heard, so we discussed it and, of course, I researched it after we met. I have learned over my 53+ years on this earth that I almost observe everything. My brain then goes through analyzing the situation, putting myself in the situation and after the analysis I come up with many possible and various outcomes based on putting myself in that specific situation. This happens when friends are telling me something they are dealing with, stories within podcasts I listen to, stories I hear or read, and even scenarios in movies/videos I watch. This came to light recently when Marcie and I were watching a wonderful series on YouTube and I asked her after one episode finished what she thought of the episode. Her response was “no thoughts”. This floored me. I have heard of people who can mindlessly watch a TV show, movies, or videos, b...